I ignored him, putting on liquid liner and mascara perfectly as I hair sprayed my curls a little bit more before saying, "Ready". Band: BTS(Bangtan boys/Sonyeondan. Those were the words that made me spend two hours on how I looked everyday for the past month.
"She hasn't put any effort into how she looks recently. I couldn't even look at him right now. "Mina, stop" I said, closing my eyes, just wishing she would go away. Why do people not like me? I was currently putting liquid foundation onto my face, spreading it evenly along my skin as Jin was studying me through the doorway. "I'm nothing special, Ji—".
This wasn't how neither of us wanted it to ever be, but maybe it was supposed to be like this. "I'm sorry to bother you guys, but my sister saw you and started begging me to bring her to you" the teenager said, bringing her little sister in front of her, "Say hi". He asked softly, taking a step closer to me. I think you should get this makeup off". Jin suddenly grabbed my face and pressed his lips to mine. "WHAT DO YOU WANT? " Breathing in deeply, I managed to get out what I wanted to say. Two full months of all your 'she doesn't put effort in herself' and all your 'she isn't making my image look good' shit floating in my head. Bts scenarios when he makes you feel insecure without. Member: Kim Seokjin. I can't even think about how many times she's said to me. "Baby, where did you hear that f—". I yelled, flinging my body away from his hold. I was accepting myself and then you have to open your fucking mouth, fucking tearing myself down because of you! Jin and I were walking around the park hand in hand, drinking milkshakes as a girl about 11 yrs old with a teenager started to shyly walk up to us.
Jin fluttered his eyes closed, almost as if the words actually hurt him. I have an image, you know? I suddenly shouted, breaking down in hysterics, "Your own damn mouth. That's pure bullshit". Bts scenarios when he makes you feel insecure. "You have an image, Oliver" I managed to say, breathing in with little breaths as I looked at him in blur, "and I'm sorry I ruined it". Like, she always wore makeup, always did her hair, put on nice outfits. I wasn't really in the mood to say much more to her, which wasn't really the best idea, considering she'd probably continue on throwing harsh comments at me.
I smiled, making my way to the garbage can to throw out my milkshake, humming to myself as I suddenly was rammed into the garbage can. "Y/n" I heard Jin say, grabbing my shoulder and turning me around. "You don't look anything like yourself. I started to accept who I was, and it was the longest process I had ever had the chance to take, but I got there, only for it to be crashed down to where I had started. Bts scenarios when he makes you feel insecure now. I won't let her words get to me. "I forgot what you look like" he whispered, grazing the pad of his thumbs over my lips.
It's not like I wanted to make his image look bad, it was actually because I started to feel more confident in myself. I didn't want to talk to him about this now. I don't want to surround myself with people i crave acceptance from. A large hand grabbed my shoulder, turning me around once again. I need time to clear my head. I can't do that, not even after two years of dating.
"How long has that been going on, y/n? " My eyes opened, looking at her through my tears. Jin smiled, Giving her a hug.. "And who might this be? " I giggled, trying to push him away so that we wouldn't get caught. This time, I was even more angry. And do you know what, Jin? I could tell that he was lost. I didn't understand why nobody could accept me.